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Blood Painted Roses Part 18

Weâ�™re so sorry that we havenâ�™t posted inâ�¦well a very long time. Weâ�™re really sorry. We just want to thank those who didnâ�™t give up on our fanfic. This one is for you guys!

Here is part 17, if you forgot where it left off.:http://panicrebels.buzznet.com/user/journal/960191/blood-painted-roses-part-17/

If youâ�™re new and what to read it from the beginning, here ya go:http://panicrebels.buzznet.com/user/journal/114252/blood-painted-roses-prologue/

Blood Painted Roses Part 18

Adamâ�™s P.O.V

Those last words rolled off my tongue so gracefully. I didnt need to deceive myself to know that I meant it with every drop of blood flowing in my veins. She sets herself apart from any other girl Ive ever met. Sheâ�™s so beautiful inside and out. That distinct scent from her hair when we hug. I wait like an impatient child for the beginning of each week just to see her again; now there wont be seeing her anymore...

I just want her to open her eyes and see that no one loves her like I do; no one but me.

Hayleyâ�™s P.O.V

I was so sick.

Sick and tired of lying to myself.

" Hun." Josh gently caressed my shoulder. I couldnt bear turning my head. I could feel the cold sheets ruffled under my legs; just another sign that here is not where I was supposed to be.

"Hayles, whatâ�™s wrong?"

This isnt supposed to be him. Hes not whom I want him to pretend to be. He never will be.

I stood up to fix my dress and hair. "Hayley, whatd I do wrong? Answer me, please?" My hand was glued to the doorknob. I released and looked up at the mirror on his side wall. It wasnâ�™t the Hayley I saw a week ago. It was a distorted, blurry version of her. She was a fake. A lying, cheating fake. She disgusted me.

"You didnâ�™t do anything wrong; I did."

I could feel his eyes burn a whole in my back. I didnâ�™t want Josh to feel guilty in anyway. It wasnâ�™t his fault; it was mine. How could I do this to him? He didnâ�™t deserve what I was doing to him. I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

â�œHayley.â� Josh got up from the bed. He was at my side at once. He grabbed my face in both of his hands. â�œYou didnâ�™t do anything wrong. Do you understand me? Nothing.â�

Before I knew it, tears were running down my face. I did do something wrong; there was no denying it.

â�œJoshâ�¦â� I choked out. â�œIâ�™m sorry. I-I have to go." The words almost sounded like gibberish, hopefully he understood, but I didnâ�™t look to make sure. I was out the door before he could speak.

I hated myself more then ever. The tears were filling up in my eyes. I couldnâ�™t see well but I didnâ�™t care, as soon as I was out his front door, I ran. I wanted to run and never look back. I ran until my legs gave up on me. It was pretty dark outside. I couldnâ�™t see a car close by. I remembered that I had the cab company number in my phone contacts. Then it hit me; I left my phone at Joshâ�™s house. I couldnâ�™t go back. I guess I was screwed. My house wasnâ�™t so far from his neighborhood, just fifteen minutes or so. I needed time to think and figure out what I was to do next.

Joshâ�™s P.O.V

â�œJosh, Iâ�™m sorry. I-I have to go.â� Before I knew it Hayley was gone. I wanted to run after her but I knew it wouldnâ�™t do any good. I just stood there, probably looking like a dumbass, wondering what went wrong. I mean, Iâ�™m no expert in this. Was I really that bad? No, that couldnâ�™t be itâ�¦could it?

Beep, beep, beep

Where the heck is that noise coming from? I had been hearing it for a couple minutes now. It was not a sound I recognized. I finally got myself together to find out where it was coming from. I followed the sound; it was coming from under the bed. This wasnâ�™t my phone; it was Hayleyâ�™s.

I picked it off the floor, opening it, it was a voice mail. It said it was from Adam. Adam? I thought to myself. Why would Adam call Hayley? Curiosity was getting the best of me; I wanted to hear what Adam had to say to Hayley.

Well there you go lol. Part 18. I know what you guys are thinking, finally, right? Haha, well we hope you guys enjoy this as much as we did writing it. Weâ�™re so sorry again. Hopefully the next part wonâ�™t take us so longâ�¦lol. Weâ�™re kidding. Weâ�™ll work on it ASAP. Thanks again guys.

-panicrebels

So what?

Okay Hayley Williams is dating Chad Gilbert from New Found Glory and is that really a big deal?

He may be a tad older then her but its her life.

To all of you who are saying that he's stupid and that you hate him, first of all, do you know him personally to say that about him?

Never judge a book by its cover.

I know you all care about Hayley as do I but we have no right to say who she can date or who she can't.

Hayley is a big girl, she can take care of herself, and if he does anything to hurt her, she has 3 amazing bandmates...and awesome fans to kick his New Found Glory ass :D

Pretty.Random.

It has been quite awhile since we have posted a journal, and its about time to post another. I also decided to answer some of the questions we have gotton asked.

For starters, we have gotton messages/comments asking about our fanfic "Blood Painted Roses," People have asked if it was finished, to answer your question the fanfic is not finished. We just kinda lost interest in it and we had writers block. So we decided to give it rest but like I said we got messages from readers and well we thought it wasn't fair to leave our readers on that cliffhanger. I mean I would hate for a person not to finish a story.

So Annette and I have talked about it and we'll write another chapter, but we're still not sure if we're going to finish it in this last chapter. We been talking to some of our friends on how we should end it, I can't promise that we'll post in the next week, but we'll try :D.

We also like to thank those who messaged us about it (You know who you are ;D) You guys are truly good friends.

If you guys are just hearing about this story and want to read it

go here:http://panicrebels.buzznet.com/user/journal/114252/blood-painted-roses-prologue/

The main character is Hayley Williams except her last name is Stevens.Pete Wentz is also in it except his name is Adam Breech. I think you guys might like it.

Its not a fanfic about how paramore got started or anything like that. Its more like reality I guess.

My 10 fave songs

TAGGED BY STOPTHISSONG

10. Love Is Like Oxygen- Sweet

9. 23- Jimmy Eat World

8. Goodnight and Go- Imogen Heap

7. I Will Follow You Into The Dark- Deathcab For Cutie

6. Gravity Of Love- Enigma

5. Nobody Puts Baby In The Corner- Fall Out Boy

4. Best Of You- Foo Fighters

3. Papercut- Linkin Park

2. Immigrant Song- Led Zeppelin

1. My Heart- Paramore

*** hehe :D My list came off the top of my head and it came out nicely :) So let's see your favorite songs, I tag: melissamalone, hiddenxlovex, fansatthedisco, chickens4life

-Annette

Top 10 Favorite Bands

10. Mae

9. No Doubt

8. The Audition

7. Lorene Drive

6. The Hush Sound

5. Led Zeppelin

4. The Starting Line

3. This Providence

2. Fall Out Boy

1. PARAMORE!!! :D

woohoo! there it is everybody :D My favorite bands, it' not all that accurate because it's always changing but he's the latest xD

I tag breesays, mountainmafia, hiddenxlovex, fansatthedisco, melissamalone, and neeshaxcrazy

-Annette, one of the panicrebels

Blood Painted Roses Part 17

Ok Iâ�™m going to start this out with a huge apology. To be honest, we had this whole story planned out so well that we could have typed up each part and saved it in a special folder. But complications arose and we didnâ�™t even know the outcome. So each part has its own problems we need to work out. Sometimes we have writerâ�™s block for months; shoot thatâ�™s the serious case we just got over. Then we started receiving messages and notes questioning whether the story had ended. ATTENTION ALL READERS! Itâ�™s not over J woohoo. So there it is from Gracie and I, with the biggest heartfelt apology we could possibly come up with :P Itâ�™s great being back from the dead & I hope you all enjoy it.

-Annette

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Part 17

*Hayleyâ�™s POV*

Why do things have to be this difficult? â�œWanna explain what happened back there?â� Josh half asked/stated. I felt an overwhelming amount of shame rush over me.

â�œEh, donâ�™t worry about it.â� I could feel myself sinking slowly in the passenger seat. Josh glanced my way and held my hand. I looked down at my hand enveloped in his; hidden and safe. Right now is not the time to stiffen up/ stop the tense behaviorâ�¦ The warm brown hair and perfectly tan skin, if only I could unravel the mystery in his never fading smile. I donâ�™t know how it came so fast, but I have control over how it ends; it ends tonight.

My plans clashed with a creak of the parking brake. Josh unbuckled his seatbelt and got out. I figured Iâ�™d open it myself since I do have fingers made for those sort of tasks.

â�œI was going to open that for you.â� He sneered.

â�œHa, yeah but I almost forgot god made me with two hands intact. Thanks anyway.â� I smiled with my eyes. We walked our way up his driveway and came to the entrance of a colonial era two-story house. He held the stainless steel lock and pushed down to let us in. His house was neatly decorated but had the essence of a single parent household. He led me past the kitchen, living room, family room, guest room, and so on, to the upstairs game room. Pinball machines, classic arcade, air hockey, foosball- oh my! Yup it was all there- unused and calling us out. We played Pac-man until I said I didnâ�™t want to play another rematch for million gazillionth time and that itâ�™s be much easier if he surrendered.

â�œYou know,â� I said looking around, â�œThere is one game I have yet to master.â�

â�œOh yeah,â� He said inching closer to me. â�œWhat that?â� He asked completely serious in a playful, yet erotic way. I smirked in response and ran to the wall where the pool cues hung and handed one to him. â�œGame on.â� I wrinkled my nose and winked.

â�œOk well start with your stance,â� He came behind me. â�œSpread your legs about a few inches apart and lean in a little.â� Once I did so, he did the same. He placed his hand safely on my waist. He knew how to make me quiver; how to make me want him. I held the cue by my side and turned around to lock lips with his. He pushed his hips on mine. I had to return to favor; I bit his lip ring. We broke apart only to walk down the dark hallway into another dark room I assumed was his bedroom. Come on Hayley. You know you want this. He wants this. Dangit, ADAM WANTS THIS! We shuffled into the moonlight against his door. We both gasped for oxygen. Josh stopped and looked at me in the eyes waiting for the right words to come into play. I nodded and lifted the hem of his shirt and pressed my mouth against his and opened my eyelids to a concentrated Josh. An innocent and naive Josh. Iâ�™m using you, abusing you, my little decoy. I shut my eyes and thought of the source of this pain. This wasnâ�™t Adam. A tear tricled down as I let those regrets escape my mind.

*Adamâ�™s POV*

The beats drowned out my morality. I staggered to the minibar and poured a glass of Courvoisier. I held my head to stop the blurriness and trampled over guys and girls hooking up/making out on the living room rug. Giggles, shouts, screams, and yells rose into the musty air. I slumped down next to Brittney making a guy from the team. I couldnâ�™t muster up the strength to angry or sad. I could only think her and the sheer emptiness she made me feel. I took a gulp and let it tingle down my throat; maybe itâ�™d burn out my feelings. I slipped my phone out of my pocket, dialed the number I knew by heart.

Her phone was obviously off â�˜cause this came up:

Hey it Hayley! Haha that rhymes yo! Anyways, if you have something special and not boring to tell me, leave me a message. Peace.

I cleared my throat and began to arrange my words.

â�œHayley, itâ�™s um.. Adam.

Ugh. What ever happened between us?

[pause]

I love you.â�

And I hung up.

No one else will have like you do.

No one else will have me, only you.

**hope ya noticed the Jimmy Eat World references through out :D buzz and comment!

Peace ;)

-Annette one of the panicrebels

Random Facts about us Panicrebels

WE BEEN TAGGED BY MELISSA MALONE and BREESAYS :D

Here are the rules:

1) Only list 8 facts.
2) You must then list 8 TAGS at the end of the post. This means you must name 8 people on Buzznet who now must do the same blog.
3) Go comment on their profile and tell them to come read yours! I want participation.

1.My favorite word is Penis.I swear I don't know why it just is lol.

2. I hate Hilary Duff for some odd reason, she just pisses me off. she's just so...grrr I can't stand her fake face lol.

3.I blast my music really loud when people I don't know are at my house, and because it pisses off the woman who gave birth to me.

4. I want to marry a celebrity because when they die I get their moolah lol. jk but i do want to marry a celebrity.

5. I want be a host on The Sauce.(FUSE) because it will just be cool to get to meet awesome bands and get into great concerts/shows

6. I been to 10 elementry schools which really sucks. I would cry everytime I would go to a new one.

7. I hate onions on my burgers. They're just plain nasty lol but I do love onion rings.

8. I still listen to N'SYNC when I'm sad. I listen to "Tearin' up my heart" or "I want you back" lol

Hmm... now who do i tag...?

MountainMafia,Crazypatdfan0909,canadianxindie,jadesgirl,forbiddenfaith79,brendonuriesjoy,

shadygirl0923,mcrpoophead3000

-Gracie

Each of you must tag 8 more people and you can't tag someone who has already

Blood Painted Roses Part 16

this song has been on repeat all night :D

*Hayleyâ�™s POV*

â�œ6:58â�¦.6:59â�¦.â� I robotically read the times off the oven clock. This anxious behavior was new to me, and frankly, itâ�™s scary.

I promised myself just one more glance. â�œ7:00.â�

[Doorbell]

I felt really squeamish all of a sudden. â�œThat must be Josh,â� I told nobody but myself. I hurried off the kitchen chair and looked into the mirror conveniently hung by the entrance door. I stared hard as if asking for my reflectionâ�™s approval. I chose a white strapless- cotton eyelet dress with uneven lengths, the longest one falling right at my knees. I shook my hair around carelessly and smiled with hope in mind.

[Knock, Knock]

I grabbed a lightweight black bolero before opening the door. â�œHey Josh,â� I quickly greeted while locking the door behind us both. I looked up to a dark hazel colored wide-eyed Josh. â�œUmmm, did I miss something?â� I chuckled.

â�œYou look so beautiful.â� He said airily. I was hoping my next action wouldnâ�™t happen, but to my luck, it was too late. I blushed a light shade of pink. â�œThanks,â� I said softly.

*Joshâ�™s POV*

There as was no lie in that statement. She looked so beautiful, like she doesnâ�™t even have to try, like she doesnâ�™t even know. She just doesnâ�™t realize how special she really is.

â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦â�¦

The ride to Deanâ�™s house was peaceful and calm. Sheâ�™s so witty, yet easy to talk to. Before long, we were across the street from his house and out of the car.

*Hayleyâ�™s POV*

â�œLooks like a full house,â� he said with a smile. â�œReady Hayls?â� itâ�™s funny how memeories come back by just the calling of a nickname.

â�œYeah..â� before I could take in my thoughts, he reached for my hand and held it in his and we began walking to the front entrance. I felt so uneasy, but we walked into the foyer like red carpet regulars. I tried my best to appear confident despite feeling out of place. Josh never let me out of his sight though; he introduced me to all his friends and I stayed by his side.

â�œWant something to drink, Hayls?â� he asked getting up from the couch.

â�œActuallyâ�¦.yeah, yeah Iâ�™ll take a root beer. Thanks.â�

â�œComing right up!â� he said with a wink. I chuckled to myself lightly while fidgeting with my hands. I took a deep breath and analyzed my party surroundings. That is until I felt a warm hand snake around my neck. I looked down at the foreign hand and turned around to face the drunken, weed-smoking jackass. â�œHey babe, you fiiiiine as heeeelll.â� His breath reeked of Bacardi and vodka.

â�œ1) My name is not babe, 2) I donâ�™t know you, and 3) I donâ�™t want to after smelling you.â� I said in a stern voice simultaneously twitching my nose in disgust. I lifted myself off the couch, but this guy wouldnâ�™t quit.

â�œWell we can get well- acquainted upstairs. How â�˜bout it?â� he grinned at his sly proposition. He used his index finger to point to the staircase as if I didnâ�™t know my way around already. Words werenâ�™t needed in these situations, actions were wiser.

I softened my face, leaned into close proximity to his face. â�œMaybe another time,â� I whispered with eyes glistening. I rapidly reached over for a candle I saw in the corner of my eye and shot the wax in his face. â�œâ�™Cause now youâ�™ll need to take care of that burn, jackass!â� I said raising my voice then storming out of the room. I could feel everyoneâ�™s eyes on me and heard all the small talk as if it were to me. I waited by some other couple near the entry to the door.

â�œHayley?â� I grunted before matching voice with face. I looked up in response. â�œWhat are you doing here?â� Adam asked surpised.

â�œOoh, I get it. You donâ�™t want me here? Fine. Iâ�™ll leave.â� I pouted and crossed my arms. I tried to act hurt while walking to the door.

â�œNooo, I donâ�™t mean it like that,â� he said stopping me. â�œI mean who did you come with?â� I opened my mouth to answer but my answer came to me. Literally.

â�œHayls, here you go-â� Josh came behind me and handed me the can. Soon we weâ�™re all involved in this strange silence.

I had to break this staring contest Josh and Adam were competing in. â�œJosh wanna dance?â� Adam cocked an eyebrow to my question.

â�œSure.â� I intertwined my fingers with his and lead the way. He wrapped a sheltering arm around my waist and we both moved our bodies in harmony with the blasting sound waves.

I looked over my shoulder and to my surprise, Adam and Brittany were basically bumping and grinding all over each other. He gave me a fake grin in reply to my shocked and twisted expression.

â�œJosh, want to head out somewhere else. Your place?â� he nodded.

If he wants to play it like a game

Well, come on, come on, letâ�™s play.

BOOM SHAKA LAKA!!!! I donâ�™t know why I just did that, but I just feel really random today. It feels great :D haha. So I wrote this part and I hope you all enjoy it â�˜cause it was a spur-of-the-moment concept/idea. Gracie was originally to write this, but she wrote the last part

and I feel the need to write this one. I actually like this part, it has a little bit of my personality and pazzaz added into it. Lol. So do what you guys do best- that is read, buzz & comment ^_^

~Annette~

Blood Painted Roses Part 15

Adamâ�™s P.O.V

I canâ�™t believe it! Me, Adam Breech got moved to second-string quarterback just because of the new guy? Even though I didnâ�™t know Josh, I felt like bashing his head into a pole. I could not wait to leave practice. All the guys from the team got along with him right away.

â�œAlright guys, thatâ�™s enough for today, hit the showers.â� yelled the coach from across the field. Finally, practice was over. After I showered got into a clean pair of jeans and a shirt I went straight to the coachâ�™s office. I guess you know why.

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â�œCoach! What is going on here? Josh just came here today! He should be the water boy or something! Weâ�™ve only known him for 3 hours tops!â� Could you tell I was pissed off? I had to tell him exactly what I thought.

â�œMr. Breech, do not raise your voice at me in my office! Josh has been playing and training in football since junior high school. Last time I checked, you started playing football when you came to high school.â�

â�œSo?â� I asked with my eyes bulging out of my eye sockets.

â�œSo if you donâ�™t like the new arrangement, I donâ�™t know what to tell youâ�¦â�

â�œWell I do. Its unfair coach.â�

â�œUnfair? Iâ�™ll tell you whatâ�™s unfair-you coming to my office whining and crying like a little girl. Get out of my office, or you will go from second string to off the team. You choose.â� I walked out of the office and slammed my fist into the wall. I went back to the locker room to catch up with Dean.

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â�œDean! Dude, letâ�™s go! Iâ�™m hungry!â� I yelled into the locker room. I was so pissed off I wanted leave school as fast I could. I walked around the corner and to my surprise, Dean was talking to Josh.

â�œSorry dude I was just inviting Josh to my party on Friday.â� replied Dean. Dean was having a party?

â�œUh I didnâ�™t know you were having a party.â� I asked confused. Dean invited Josh before me. What the hell is going on here? This dude was like brain washing my friends or something.

â�œI was going to tell you after practice but you ran off or something.â� he responded defensibly. He sort of had a point.

â�œOh sorry I had business to take care of.â� I replied as I gave Josh a smirk.

â�œSo you going or what?â� Dean asked Josh who replied with a nod of yes. â�œAlright cool, weâ�™ll catch you later then.â�

Dean and I just walked out of the locker room and straight to the parking lot to where my car was parked. I wanted tell Dean exactly what I thought of Josh but Dean would just say this stupid clichÃ© that they taught us in elementary school â�œDonâ�™t judge a book by its cover.â�

I hope that tomorrow I will have a better day but all I could think of right now was food.

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Joshâ�™s P.O.V

I felt bad for Adam. I do not want to be known as the guy who took the star quarterbackâ�™s place. He seems like a cool guy so hopefully once he gets to know me; he will be cool with having me around. Deanâ�™s invitation to his party was a great way to get to know everyone. Right after practice, I decided to explore Chicago. I went to starbucks to get a coffee because it was getting cold. I remembered I wanted to get a new album that just came out. Therefore, I went to the nearest music store I could find. It was Hot Topic.

I rushed into the store and went straight into the music section. I looked and looked for the album but I could not find it. So I asked one of the workers who was near the cash register.

â�œExcuse me, do you guys have Underoathâ�™s new album.â� I asked. I really wanted it.

â�œLet me checkâ�¦â� he said as he typed on his computer without looking down at the keyboard. â�œYes, we do, just ask the worker in the back to get it for you.â�

â�œThanks for the help man.â� I said as I was walking to the back of the store. â�œExcuse me, the dude in the front told me to ask you if you could get me Underoathâ�™s new album.â� I asked the girl worker whose back was facing me.

â�œUm yeah sure, here you go.â� she said facing me.

â�œThanks.â� I snapped â�œHayley? What are you doing here?â�

â�œI guess you figured out my name.â� she said with a smirk. â�œI work here if you havenâ�™t noticed.â�

She has such a way of making look like a dumbass.

â�œUm I knew that.â� I said smiling awkwardly.

â�œSureâ�¦you did.â� she said sarcastically. I donâ�™t know but there was something about her that just made me feelâ�¦different.

â�œHayley! Youâ�™re off in 5 minutes, Iâ�™ll lock up!â� shouted the guy from the front of the store.

â�œFinallyâ�¦â�I heard Hayley whisper. Therefore, I took a chance by asking her if she needed a ride home, she seemed rather shocked to the question.

â�œYou donâ�™t even know me, I could turn out to be a killer.â� she said crossing her arms. I just laughed at the thought.

â�œWellâ�¦itâ�™s a risk Iâ�™m willing to take.â� I responded.

She laughed. Her smile was breathtaking and her green eyes just sparkled at every moment.

â�œWellâ�¦okay let me just get my stuffâ�¦oh and Josh donâ�™t get any ideas because something might happen.â� Whoa, I think this is the first time I was scared of a chick that is only 5 feet tall.

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Hayleyâ�™s P.O.V

I could not believe I accepted a ride home from a guy I barely knew. I guess Josh did not seem that bad. I was not going to lie; He was really cute and sweet. The lip ring made him even cuter, but I knew a guy like him would never fall for a girl like me. After what happened with Adam at the Fall Out Boy concert, I didnâ�™t want to embarrass myself anymore. The ride home at first was just awkward silence until Josh broke the ice.

â�œSoâ�¦Halesâ�¦uh how long have you lived in Chicago?â� he asked with eyes still on the road. â�˜Halesâ�™ was a nickname my dad used to call me before he passed away. It brought back some memories.

â�œI lived in Chicago since I was three.â� I responded quickly. Moving to Chicago was the worst thing that could have ever happened to me. If I were still in Franklin, my mom wouldnâ�™t have died and we wouldnâ�™t have met my step-dad John, who has made my life a living hell. â�œWhat made your parents move to Chicago?â�

â�œWellâ�¦uhâ�¦my parents got divorced and I had to choose between my mom or my dad, so I ended up choosing my dad because I get along with him way more. I could tell him anything.â� said Josh with smile. I wish I had a real relationship like that with my step-dad but all he gets along with is alcohol and prostitutes.

â�œOh, Iâ�™m sorryâ�¦is it hard not seeing your parents together anymore?â� I asked

â�œIt sucks but I got over it. I mean they would fight mostly everyday, it bugged the shit out of me.â� said Josh. â�œThe reason they would fight was because my mom was always traveling for her job and she never made time for my dad, my little sister, or me.â�

â�œWhoaâ�¦I would never choose my job over my family.â� I said.

â�œSoâ�¦are we getting close to your crib?â� asked Josh as he smiled at me.

I could not help but smile back. His brown eyes just made me melt completely.

â�œUm yeah, turn left hereâ�¦â� I said as I pointed to the way. â�œâ�¦then turn left here on Dahlia Dr.â�

After arriving at my house, I thanked Josh for the ride.

â�œThanks, Iâ�™ll see you tomorrow.â� I said as I was about to close his car door.

â�œYouâ�™re welcomeâ�¦wait Hayley!â� shouted Josh

â�œYeah?â� I answered back.

â�œI know I donâ�™t really know youâ�¦and you donâ�™t know me but uhâ�¦would you consider going to a party with me on Friday nightâ�¦I mean if youâ�™re not busy or anything?â� What just happened? Did Josh just ask me out? Should I accept or not?

â�œThanks but I donâ�™t know if Iâ�™m busy and I donâ�™t want to say anything right now.â� I said as nicely as I could. â�œIâ�™m sorry.â�

â�œDonâ�™t worry about it.â� he said simply.

â�œBut Joshâ�¦give me your number just in case.â� Josh went from disappointed to happy in a matter of seconds. He wrote down his number in a piece of paper that he found in his glove compartment.

â�œHere you go.â� he said handing me the piece of paper.

â�œThanks. See you tomorrow.â� with that I closed his car door and walked to my front porch.

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I could not sleep. I just laid in bed thinking. All I could think of was him. The next thing I knew I was dialing his number. I felt as my heart was going to jump out of my chest.

â�œHello?â� said the other person on the other line very groggily.

â�œSorryâ�¦were you sleeping?â�

â�œOf course notâ�¦whoâ�™s sleeping at 4 in the morning?â� he said sarcastically

â�œVery funnyâ�¦and sorry for calling uh kind of late, I just need to tell you something.â�

â�œNo problem, what do you need to tell me that you couldnâ�™t wait to tell me at school?â� he asked curiously

â�œWellâ�¦ I just wanted to say yes.â�

â�œYes?â� he asked

â�œYes, I would like to go to the party tomorrow night Josh.â� I said

â�œReally? I mean great. Iâ�™ll see you later at school I guess, um good morning Hayley.â� he said laughing.

â�œGood morningâ� I laughed then hung up the phone. I laid back in bed and just thinking of what I did. I just laughed. I went to sleep feeling relieved. I never done this before but it sure felt good to get it off my chest.

Hey guys sorry it took so freaking long to post its that we been too lazy or to busy to post.I hope that you guys enjoyed it. Hopefully we will start working on part 16 soon, but I wouldnâ�™t count on it lol. Comment and buzz and weâ�™ll be happy campers :D

-Gracie

*note-Annette wrote the part where Adam and his coach are arguing. So thank her for that.

The last night of the Honda Civic Tour!

I started getting ready at around 1 p.m. I curled my hair and put on my Fall Out Boy shirt which I got for my birthday. I was done at about maybe 2:30.I chatted with my mom and cousin before my friend Amber called me at exactly 3:00 telling me they're outside waiting for me.I grab my purse which had a camera,chapstick,and my house keys.(yep no money :/) 4 mintues after we left my house, I ended up forgetting my "Infinity on high" c.d so my friend's dad had to drive back.I ran as fast I could to get it and run back to the car beacuse we still had to pick up our other friend Jessica

So once we picked our friend Jessica.My friend Amber asked her dad if she could put on "Infinity on high" which he happily agreed in doing so.We only sang to 3 songs because they didn't know the rest of the songs lol.So after that we changd to "RIOT!" We knew the words to each song which was so much fun,but it came to an end when we got stuck in traffic.Thankfully her dad found another way to get there we got to Anaheim around 5:30.We still had time to get something to eat at my fav. restaurant Taco Bell.Once we got our food, we had to choke it down lol.

When we got to the Honda Center I thought were going to have to wait a long time. There was people everywhere.Once we parked there was a guy selling Fall Out Boy shirts for $20. He kept yelling "I got only two left.I'm selling them for 20 while inside they're selling them for 40." My friend jessica ended up buying one.After that little scene we waited for my friend Amber's dad to get our tickets.While waiting for him I checked all the hot guys I could lol...so did my friends.Thats when my friend's dad gave us our tickets.

The best part was that we were allowed to bring cameras.I was like "Yes!" lol. Once they searched us, we walked in.(They didn't even touch my ticket they like scanned it or something).There was a dude at a desk giving out free posters but you had to sign up for something.So my friend Amber and I were like "What the hell lets sign up." haha we got a poster of Fall Out Boy and one of the The Bravery.Next we were running around to find our place in the freaking big ass arena.(I hate arenas! ahh!)

We thought we were late so my friend's dad quickly settled us in and he left. Cobra Starship was just starting. Gabe was looking fine as always lol.He had skinny tight jeans on with a purple hoodie.Second to the last song was "Snakes on a plane" and yes Billy Beckett came out lol. Once they were done performing there was a 15 minute intermission.During the intermissin there was 2 white screens and on the screens it said "Enter your message and text to( i forgot the number lol)" I can't text anymore so my friends did. My friend Jessica texted "Hi Gracie and Amber." haha we screamed when it came out lol. The people in front of us were like "How did you guys to that?" lol.We're like "Read that" pointing to the screens. My friend Amber texted 6 times and her messages never came out lol.She was pissed but I couldn't help but laugh.

After that some weird dude introduced Paul Wall.He was umm okay I guess lol.During the show my friend Amber was like "Sing Lean Back." I was like "He doesn't sing lean back you dumbass thats Fat Joe" We laughed at her stupidness lol.Again after that perfomance there was another 15 minute intermission.We took pictures while we waited for The Academy is...I couldn't wait to sing and dance when Billy came out again lol.

Intermission was done and The Academy is...started with...omg I forgot lol.Sorry.I just kept staring at Billy because he kept running back and forth lol. He's so skinny and tall lol.His shirt kept going up when he jumped up lol. I took like 3 pictures of that performance.I think they ended it with Billy and the drummer throwing the drums across the stage lol.Again another 15 minute intermission...Damn those intermissions kept getting on my freaking nerves lol.

Once the people from the arena tried to get everything ready for +44, backstage I saw Travis Barker lol." I was like Oh my god there's Travis with his shirt off." lol A guy in front of me was like "Where?" (The guy wasn't gay lol. Trust me). +44 was pretty good lol. They got the crowd pumped. In the end Mark the lead singer was like "Okay he haven't sang this song in a longtime!" It was a old Blink 182 song.Once he said that all the guys meaning Cobra Starship,The Academy is...and yes Fall Out Boy guys came out in their boxers lol. I took a picture just so you know lol.

Finally they were done, again 15 minute intermission. My friends and I were taking a picture when all of a sudden people started screaming. We're like "Whats going on?" In the white screens they were showing Pete talking about invisible children.I can't really tell you much because I could barely hear him talk.People screamed from left and right.

When it ended all of sudden Pete,Patrick,and Joe popped out from under the stage lol.Fire was coming out from the sides of the stage lol.It was awesome. I think they started off with "Grand Theft Autumn." every person in the arena was screaming like you have no idea. There were 2 girls in back of us yelling like they were the biggest fans. My friends and I got so freakin pissed we yelled our fucking lungs out lol. I think they got the point and sort of stopped yelling. haha Thats what you get when you mess with one of the panicrebels lol.

The show was amazing. I called Annette during a song lol. She told me to call her mom's phone so I did.Her mom and her have the same exact voice and I could barley hear at the sametime. I heard someone pick up so I started saying this "OMG Netta Fall Out Boy is playing." When all of a sudden Netta was like "Gracie, you kept talking to my mom, so tell me again from the beginning" I couldn't but laugh lol.

My mom called during "Thanks for the memories" and I couldn't hear so I sang a bit,yelled then ended it with "Bye, I love you." When I got home she's like "You were on speaker when I called.Everyone at work thought you were crazy or something" lol.Then Patrick sang Akon lol. It's the one that goes like this "Nobody wanna see us together..." I don't know the rest lol. Pete kept laughing and singing along.They played "Hum Hallelujah" when they finished that song. They started playing Michael Jackson's "Beat it" Every started singing along lol. I knew every word to that song lol. I would write more but I have to get ready lol.

The guys ended it with thanking everyone for coming to the last show of the Honda Civic Tour. I wouldn't change a thing about that night. It was just so much fun. I can't wait till Paramore starts headlining, Annette and I are going to "party like a rockstar." lol.

Thanks for reading guys. Sorry if it's dull but I really need to get ready.bye.

*note* during each band performance they kept saying "fuck" lol. and Pete flipped off the camera as well.Oh and another thing there was a couple a few seats away and they kept making out with each other.They acted if like they were the only people there.It was seriously nasty.The dude kept feeling up on her and she's like "Stop it." but very playfully. Then they kept getting up from their seats, I bet they were having quickies in the bathroom.

-Gracie

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